In my last blog, I couldn’t wait to run the day after my profound experience with Taryn Toomey’s ‘The Class.’ During ‘The Class’ in deep meditation, I found this dark, Spiky Ball in the middle of my mind’s eye that could culminate years of negative thoughts, bad experiences, and something holding me back from my potential. I needed that Fire that Toomey was talking about to eliminate it. I had an anxious excitement before my four-and-a-half-mile run.
I started the next day on a cool winter afternoon in Mount Lookout, Cincinnati, and followed the protocol from Toomey, or at least my version of it. I cleared my mind, let my arms fall by my side, and shook my hands out as I loosened up for the first half mile. I focused on my heart and breathing. I thought of a documentary called DMT: The Spirit Molecule (Gravitas Ventures 2011, Director Mitch Schultz). According to the documentary, ‘Dimethyltryptamine (DMT) is a naturally occurring psychoactive compound, which exists in humans and potentially every living organism.’
It’s also a powerful psychedelic narcotic. The documentary is scientific, yet it has a unique perspective of tripping on DMT and traveling out of the body to our origin and creation. There is a place in the film with detailed interviews of the volunteers taking the DMT and their interpretations and visual renditions of their psychedelic trips. The documentary was so intriguing I watched it again later.
In one interview, a person said when the drug was administered, within moments, there was a noise that got louder and louder until it was unbearable, and a rod would extend up his spine, pushing through his skull. Then, this psychedelic journey took him back to the universe’s origins, where we all came from. Trying to explain it here is hard to do it justice, but it is an interesting, if not unique, watch. What resonated in my mind as I ran was that rod that pushed up through the spine.
The Power of Visualization
I knew I needed to awaken my soul and find the spikey ball. I am not on drugs or, for that matter, DMT; I’m jogging, but for some reason, that rod is on my mind. I listened to my constant breath and slowly pounding heart. My eyes are open, but only to make sure I don’t run into a car or vice versa. I am relaxed and focused within. I visualize my heart beating and heating up. Then, I inwardly direct an Obelisk (four-sided tapering monument with a pyramid-type top) to push upward from my heart into the spikey ball I now see.
The top of the obelisk is pressing along the bottom of the slowly rotating spikey ball, and I visualize it being pushed through the top of my skull. I ask my heart to heat the obelisk and fire it up. My spine and head are straight, and I usually run with my head slumped forward. The obelisk is pushing this rotating ugly spikey thing out of my body, spinning inches over my head. I continue to ask my heart to superheat the obelisk and conjure the spikey ball to start spinning faster. I envision the ends of the spikes spewing this milky fluid out of the ball. I get furious at the ball and am using profanities in my head to get the substance the ‘F’ out. Spin faster and push the F’in fluid out. Heat the ball’s interior resting on the obelisk so hot that the fluid turns to steam. I see the ball spinning at the speed of a washing machine in the spin cycle. The liquid was gushing out, and the steam spewed all over the landscape. And the spikes begin to disappear, and the ball is still spinning but slower. The ball has a surface of yellow-orange and is turning gold and tan. I am halfway through my 4 ½ mile run and feel relieved as the ball begins to shine and become smooth and yellow.
As it spins, I conjure the ball to take in the eight positive emotions I spoke of in the last blog. Awe, love, trust, gratitude, forgiveness, compassion, joy, appreciation, and hope surround me. I am asking god to bring it in while this ball is still outside my body. It’s a grey day, but I thank the cloud cover for its blanket over the earth, the baron trees for sleeping during the winter so our resources are replenished, the beauty of nature, the awe of technology, the wisdom of our human nature to fabricate this world we live in. I make many gratitude offerings to our humanity and humility. I realize that this internal ball thing in the external world needs to return to my body revitalized with good omens. I let my visualization taper, and the slowly spinning, smooth gold object comes back into my mind. I start winding down my run, relaxing into the last half mile.
I feel very tranquil as I stop where I usually do, at the bottom of the hill before my house. What happened next, I almost can’t describe. I walked up my hill and saw this person walking their dog down the street. He is the only one in the neighborhood that allows his dog to defecate on my lawn and my neighbors. (I caught him once, but he didn’t see me) He smiles and says good morning, and in his left hand is a bag with his dogs’ poop. Wooh, I contemplated. Then I walked into my house, and my wife said something to me, and I could immediately sense the slight stress in her tone. This stress was something I wouldn’t usually notice. I didn’t want to listen to the TV, music, or anything as my mind was so pure and relaxed that I didn’t want to corrupt it. I was at peace with myself, which I had never experienced. I wasn’t tired from the run, but from the mind, the experience fatigued me. I have not tried that run since. Perhaps its use is more as a cleanup or reboot for down the road. I am still meditating, and the obelisk seems to occupy my body, ready to push any future spikey balls the hell out of my head.
Just a few notes on this bizarre blog. Please don’t think I’m out of my mind. Pardon the pun. What I just described to you was confirmed and a stunning revelation. I painstakingly went back through this experience so that it could make sense to you, and the effort was almost as frustrating as the original. I study Integrated Nutrition and spirituality, and exercise is part of the 12 elements of the circle of life, Primary Food. I believe we can all achieve a higher potential in health and wellness. Although visualization may seem out of the ordinary, it has a lot of standard practices. Refer to my page on Integrated Nutrition on this website for more information about what I do.
Thank you, and until next time, all the best, Allyn.
